Title: Immortal Nexus - Eros Reborn

Gender: Male

Age: Ageless

Sun Sign: Leo

Chinese Sign: Water Rat

Location: Tempe, Arizona, USA.

My Name Now…

“My name now is Tydyn Rain St. Clair, a name I quite like, but that does not hint at the multidimensional complexity of my being, invisible to the objective eye.

I live my life driven by this colony of passions and loves that give my existence meaning and fulfillment.

I yearn to express the totality of my being in life, yet the more I express, the more I feel that must be made physical.

It seems impossible; the resevoir of my life is limitless, but cries for for actuality nonetheless. My life is complete, yet never complete.

I learn, I grow, I develop; and in the infinite center of my being…I know…

I know that this divine discontent is native to all beings, and is Eternal.

My name now is Tydyn Rain St. Clair, a name I quite like…”

This was a “poem” that I wrote many years ago, that to this day still holds great meaning for me, and expresses very important aspects of who I am.

I do not fit within the parameters of any easily defined classification, as I am exceedingly multifaceted/multifarious/multitalented/multidimensional, with many diverse aspects. In reality, I bridge worlds…

There are many adjetives and nouns which could be used to define and circumscribe me:

Green-eyed, Left-handed, Gifted/Nexus Personality Type/Indigo/Renaissance Soul/Scanner/Polymath/Polyhistor/Generalist/Jack-of-All-Trades/QuirkyAlone, Bipolar Complex (type 3/cyclothymia, ultra-rapid cycling, no medication ever taken), Social Anxiety Disorder (no medication ever), ADHD (no medication ever), Dyslexic (sometimes), Autodidactic, Eclectic, Eccentric, Multifaceted, Multifarious, Multitalented, Multicultural, Multilingual, Multiplicitous, Linguist, Global Citizen, Nomad/Wanderer/World-Traveler, Botanist (specializing in the woody bamboos, though I study and love all plants), Horticulturist, Pagan/Animist/Pantheist/Panetheist/Panpsychist, Hippy/Hippie, Anarchist, Ethical Slut, Naturist/Nudist, Scientist and Mystic, Polyamorous (by nature), Pacifist, Ecologist (with strong interest in tropical forest restoration), Feminist, Egalitarian, Humanist, Intense, Passionate, Sensitive, Empathic, Deep, Compassionate, Caring, Strong, Gentle, Shy, Quiet, Different, Determined, Stubborn, Complex, Contradictory, Athletic, Sensual, Erotic, Paradoxical, Ambiguous, Clear, Precise, Transparant, Unorthodox, Unconventional, Nonconformist, Nontraditional, Non-Monogamous, Broad/Open-minded, Free-Thinking, Free-Spirited, Student, Teacher, Observer, Hedonist, Wholist, Adaptable, Flexible, Versatile…among other things. ;-)

I love connecting with open/broad-minded, free-spirited, free-thinking people of like-mind world-wide, and having long, deep, intense conversations.

I love learning, growing, developing, expanding, improving, refining, exploring, teaching, reading, writing, contributing, helping, connecting, sharing, opening, including, integrating, synthesizing, loving, catalyzing, healing, cooperating, studying, observing, educating, questioning, challenging, bettering…

Some of my more important interests/passions include:

Bamboo, Botany, Horticulture/Gardening, Tropical Forest Restoration, Ecological Restoration, Permaculture, Agroecology, Linguistics/Languages, Paganism, Naturism/Nudism/Free Body Culture, Polyamory/Polyfidelity, Polyintimacy/Polysexuality/Polyeroticism/Group Sexual Dynamics, Responsible Non-Monogamy, Tantra/Sacred Sexuality/Erotic Spirituality/Sex Magick/Karezza, Jane Roberts/Seth Material, Metaphysics, Quantum Physics, Spirituality, Metapsychology, Parapsychology, Psychology (deeper, more wholistic versions), Philosophy, Eco-Villages/Intentional Communities, Martial Arts (T'ai-Chi-Ch'uan, Aikido,Hapkido, Capoeira), Giftedness/Nexus Personality Type/Indigo/Renaissance Soul/Polymath/Polyhistor/Generalist/Jack-of-All-Trades/QuirkyAlone, Pantheism/Panetheism/Panpsychism, Nature, Ecotourism/Deep Travel, Backpacking/Hiking/Trekking, Wholism, Wholistic Health and Fitness, Indefinite Physical Immortality, Biology, Ecology, Science, Genetics, Computers and the Internet, Books, Computer Games (Strategy, Role Playing, and Simulation), Open Group Marriage/Relationships, Intimate Networks, Nakedness/Nudity, Sexuality, Seed Exchange, Cooking, Hedonism, Alternative/Sustainable Energy and Lifestyles, Massage and Body Work, Cohousing, Integral Tranformative Practice, Epigenetics, among other assorted things…

I see almost everything (Reality, Consciousness, Identity, Individuality, Selfhood, “God”, Love, Relationships, Nudity/Nakedness, Nature, Sexuality/The Erotic, Spirituality, Chronological Age/Lifespans/Aging, etc…) from a radically different perpsective/viewpoint (multiple in fact) than what is considered mainstream in this civilization and its various cultures and societies. I see wholisms rather than fragments. I strongly believe that all aspects of our beings and our interactions must be opened, freed/liberated, and integrated/unified..those boundaries that I still have seem to weaken daily… I understand clearly that all knowledge/information, and in fact all things, are infinitely interconnected…one leads into the other.

Oddly, from everything that I understand, know, believe, and the perspectives/viewpints that I have, I should be bisexual, however, I presently feel no leanings in that direction. I find women far too fascinating and attractive…

The delineation between “friends” and “lovers” has grown very fuzzy/indistinct for me. If I am attracted to someone as a friend, if there is mutual attraction, I see no reason why we must fragment our relationship by limiting our manner of interaction. I want to know them deeply and intimately…to revel and celebrate the marvelous, beautiful, special, unique being they are. An intimate network of close friends/lovers has always attracted me.

I have always been an extremely healthy person…I very rarely get sick, and if I do it is never serious, and only for a very short time. I have never broken a bone, never had a cavity, never had an allergy of any kind, whether food, respiratory, or chemical. I heal very quickly… I do not utilize allopathic medicine at all in fact, as I believe the body is a naturally self-maintaining and self-regulating homeostatic system, that, without our interference, will be healthy.

I find the Myers-Briggs Type Inidcator and the Enneagram to be quite interesting, and think that they are fascinating psychological tools. I have tried to fit myself within the parameters of their types, but have found it very difficult. I resonate strongest with the ENFP/INFP types in the MBTI, though other types call to me as well. In terms of the Enneagram, I feel that 4w5 “fits” me best, though again, others resonate with my being as well.

In terms of Western Astrology I am a Leo. In the Chinese system I am a Water-Rat. I was born at 7:20AM on July 31, 1972, on a drizzly morning in Philadelphia, PA.

There always has, and always will exist a very strong connection and love between my ex-wife, Karla (who I met and married in Costa Rica), and myself. We were married for more than a decade, and although our paths have diverged and we now have separate lives, we are still very close (though long distance) friends. We still talk on the phone with each other quite often, and hopefully always will be a part of each others' respective lives.

If I were to formulate the almost perfect position/job/vocation for me, it would be a tri Botanical/Horticultural Collector, Tropical Forest Restorationist, and Bamboo Botanist working on the behalf of a Botanic(al) Garden or Arbortum. I could very effectively put my strong facility and love for languages to use while dealing with the local populations in the various countries through which I travel and in which I work. Aside from collecting for my Garden/Arboretum, and doing restoration work on the local tropical forest ecosystems, I would also help the local communities to live in a more sustainable manner with the native forests by teaching and implementing Permacultural designs and systems.

In terms of languages, I speak/read/write English (of course) and Spanish fluently, and am almost fluent in Portugues as well. I have studied and do study many languages (Malay/Indonesian, Japanese, Tagalog/Pilipino, Italian, etc…), and I absolutely love learning them…it's fun to me. When I hear another language being spoken, my ears perk up as I try to decipher syllables/words/structure. How languages are related to each other, how they are different from each other, how they change over time, and how they mix together when 2 or more languges (even unrelated ones) come in geographic contact fascinates me to no end.

Some things I love in no particular order:

*Rain/Thunderstorms

*Spicy Foods (the spicier the better)

*Ethnic Foods (of all sorts)

*Really Good Books (of all sorts)

*Swimming (whether at pools, beaches, rivers, lakes, or streams…nude, of course…I don't own a swimsuit)

*Music (of ALL sorts, though I particularly love World Beat/Global Fusions…music that evokes emotions and feeling…that has meaning)

*Movies that express intelligence, beauty, and self-empowerment, and freedom, most often of the sci-fi, fantasy, and drama catagories.

*Cooking (I can get very creative, and revel in its sensuality)

*Beauty, Elegance, Intelligence, Freedom, and Power, expressed in their many diverse forms.

*Nature and Natural Ways - The foundation of my being

*Being Nude, especially in Nature

*Beautiful Gardens and Arboreta

*Diversity

*Complexity

*Depth

*Intensity

*Passion

*Sensitivity

*Empathy

*Compassion

*Playfulness

*Being a Catalyst for others' Learning and Growth

*Integrity

I have 2 main important focuses in my life now:

1.) Learning, growing, developing, expanding, bettering, improving, and refining myself in all aspects and areas of life. I have an intense desire to learn and assimilate just about everything. I wish I could get paid to learn languages, martial arts, instruments/music, arts, sciences, etc…when I am not in an intense learning environment, I feel stagnant/dead…Somebody hire me please!!!

2.) Making a positive contribution to the world…making the world a better place than before I arrived here. This impetus is just as strong as the first. If I don't feel what I do has any beneficial effect on the world, then I feel what I'm doing is pointless/meaningless.

“I have only myself, I know this, I understand this, I accept this…”

That is a mantra which I repeat to myself to help me keep myself balanced, centered, and detached…and when I am feeling particularly alienated/alone. I tell myself this because I know that people come into and go out of our lives…sometimes in a fleeting manner, sometimes deeply and intensely…sometimes for moments, sometimes for decades. I also make it a point of reminding myself of this fact because, although I do make friends fairly easily, I have found long-term, intimate relationships any time soon to be very improbable for a few important reasons:

1.) I do not think that I fall within the parameters of what most females tend to find attractive.

2.) My worldview/perspective/understanding is radically different/eccentric/strange/odd/weird in just about every area of life from what is considered “mainstream”.

3.) I am exceedingly picky about the individuals that I allow into my life in any sort of long-term, intimate manner.

4.) I find mutual attraction to be exceedingly rare indeed.

5.) I never ask girls out, or even ask for their numbers…ever, even when they seem to be flirting with me, which I usually take for them just being nice. Even when they are somewhat more forward/direct/aggressive in their expressed intent or interest, I usually do nothing, which they take to mean that I'm blowing them off or not interested myself, which is often not the case at all. A very sad situation indeed…lol. Needless to say, I don't date. At this point, I think I'll probably be alone for most of my life…

6.) I am quite shy at times, especially around people I don't know…

7.) I will never live for very long in any one place. I am a nomadic global citizen…my home is everywhere, and nowhere simultaneously.

One of the most significant things over the 2 years or so has been learning capoeira. Capoeia has been, by far, the most challenging, difficult, and frustrating domain of experience that I've ever attempted to learn, but I absolutely love it! It is like nothing else. I am getting better and improving, but assimilating all the multitudinous movements/attacks/evades/counterattacks, instruments, and songs will take me a good while yet. I am in the best shape of my life, in part, because of capoeira.

I'm a bike commuter. I gave up my car when I moved to Arizona, and am very happy with my decision. I save lots of money and stay in great shape (capoeira helps…hehe).

I don't believe in the concept of “private” or “public” parts of the body. All parts are equal to me, and viewed in the same terms. To me, the healthy, fit human body is exquisite, and needs no adornment innately.

In a like manner, I am just as comfortable getting to know someone through excellent conversation, full-body massages, sensual/sexual/erotic sharing, or any of a multitude of other activities, either one-on-one or in a more multiplicitous configuration. I see sexuality and the erotic as just another part of human experience, on the same terms with everything else. It's all the same to me.

Peace, Love, and Fulfillment…

Ty.

My contact information:

E-Mail:

tydynrain@yahoo.com

IM's:

Yahoo!: tydynrain

AIM: tydynrain

ICQ: 29216598

MSN: tydynrain@hotmail.com

I seek self-aware gods in the flesh…those who do not habitually project their power outside of themselves…those who question the beliefs/assumptions/patterns/programming of this civilization and the multitudinous cultures and societies which compose it, and transcend the bounds of any one culture/society/world…not continue to fall into the old patterns/habits of thought and action/reaction like biological automatons/robots. I seek those who consciously choose the thoughts/ideas/concepts/beliefs/patterns/programming that they accept into the focus of their minds, and who realize the incredible power of this. I seek those with a burning internal impetus to be catalysts for positive change in others and the world. I seek those who require learning, growth, development, and expansion, in themselves and others.

I define relationships in terms of “connections” and “resonances”, some of which can be incredibly deep and intense right from the “start”…

I have come to realize that in searching for these deep, intense connections with strong resonances, I am actually looking for my Tribe/Open Group Marriage partners. My ideal/most fulfilling relationship configuration/dynamic is an Open Group Marriage, wherein all member share love, friendship, respect, dreams/hopes/aspirations, affection, care, support, learning/growth/expansion, and the joy of being together, yet are still open to further connections from outside the relationship. I would prefer a slight predominance of women, due to the fact that most of my friends are women…as I tend to get along with them better, overall, at least in relation to “normal/average” men.

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